hmm... hai?

Dunno LJ poped on me again =s, felt inspired to come here... do you even need to feel inspired to come here?.. oh whatever, just shut up going on and on....
We are near christmas.. yay!...And I remember I had a list of things I wanted to do this year, which went totally forgotten <<...

- Get a better part time job
- Get into fashion school
- Worry less about what other people think of me (almost.. not there yet!)
- Move house
- Get pink stripes on my hair
- Buy more clothes, since i haven't got enough really
- Learn more dishes to cook.
- That Brad sort his issues out <3

Actually.... its rather good! I don't want a bloody job now <<...

Talking about Job, Brad's god a job at gamestation, betch, I want it xD... he got me a DS with discount <3 it rawks!

So livejournal ... I could never get used to it, dunno why, I always though it not flexible and rather bad looking. So i got a twitter and a wordpress blog now, much better :D. I won't be using livejournal anymore, but for those who are interested:

Twitter
http://twitter.com/Pinkmindedme

Wordpressblog
http://pinkmindedme.wordpress.com/

Sayonara!

Dunno why, but I could never get interested much in livejournal im all happy with twitter, facebook, deviantart and Wordpress really. Although livejournal IS organized, it just isn't organized in a way I like to post stuff and check other's ppl stuff. Well can't make everyone happy in the end =).

But anyway, I took a mini photoshoot with my friend, who is an awesome photographer, and needed some of his friends to pose for a portfolio he wants to make. So among others, he picked me. So today he came to my place and we took so so many photos, but most ended being blured =( . Although they didn't seem so on the camera's little screen. Some i think are just beautiful, he is really a good photographer =). I might post some photos here if you guys don't mind ^^.

Also I went play bowling for the first time, was so so much fun, and I so wanna repeat it again! I did hit the ball on my leg once, as I was going to throw it xD! Sillyness =3. So much fun I had!

I miss my Brad so much, and the fact that I will see him on 22nd, is making it seem even longer than if I still had to wait a month. My concept of time is totally screwed up :D. I just know at the moment, my feelings are a total mix: I feel  a massive happyness as well as a massive urge to cry - I just wanna see him so much...

I'm always so confused about myself, that once I start writting I don't even know what to say, all I know is that the way I am is completely an totally ruining my life and my dreams (if i have one that is).
Well I got a massive fobia of  going out alone, due to some happenings in the past, but well whatever. The thing Is i wanna go to university, but of course for that i have to travel walking, alone =/, and thats making me totally unconfrotable about so many things. Other trouble is that I don't even know what to study.

Ah... well I have to see a pscychologist about this and try to get into uni and forget this silly fear of mine...
cuddles for me.

Back in uk on 22nd, can't wait

I guess twitter took over xD its nice, easy and quick and straight to the point D: no need to come up with some random entry for a jounral. but ANYWAY

I'm in Portugal again, since ... dunno when, but since sometimes last month, and will stay here until 22nd July. Ah can't wait.

Drawing wise i had been really depressed about it, but i finally got something done, yayyyyyyy!!! Plus i want to buy SAI

This was actually last week, but whatever




( LOLz )



OMG it took like forever to get one foto right xD!!!
and why the fuck my facial expression is always the same D:

i has a twiiter coz i canz

Anyway I'm going work alone tomorrow. and I don't like it.

Well recently I have been doing "gymnastics" if you can even call it that. And I felt like doing this:



Brad had to give a push on my leg, so I could get it up that high. I'm not tallented enough to just get it up D=!!! But I will get there ;).
Then I though of doing some handstands against the door of my bedroom. I haven't done that for years! After i could see I can still do it, I tried to do other things. on which i filmed LOL!!
It isnt that briliant, but at the end of the day it was the very first time i did these, and I'm not even a gymnast D=

Here I was just seeing how much i can kinda bend
http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e267/Jojoneto/?action=view&current=Picture003.flv

And this is me trying... god knows what xD!! But just made me notice that my back really is horrible in flexibility terms:
http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e267/Jojoneto/?action=view&current=Picture004.flv

After that my back was like shit. Probably because my legs weren't in the best position and I'm just not used to do these things anyway D=

Anyway moving on. I got Lara Croft shorts =) I just will have to dye them, which I'm already all set for LOL, will just need a bowl and salt :D.
...
I'm tied and my back hurts alot =(

Well I'm finally settled (almost) in ashford, in my new rent room. Its great the area around here, beautiful new houses.



( Moar fotos )
I'm also rather upset today (Lol when am I ever happy?) People I think are my friend seem to never remind me for ANY reason in the world. Sometimes I think I'm better off alone =).
I'm dreading next week...
And I found a Lara Croft's top that will go well with my outfit, yay.

According to my post, i wished this

- Get a better part time job
- Get into fashion school
- Worry less about what other people think of me
- Move house
- Get pink stripes on my hair
- Buy more clothes, since i haven't got enough really
- Learn more dishes to cook.
- That Brad sort his issues out <3

Of course the lined ones means its done lol =p
Not a massive deal, and I dont really wanna pink stripes on my hair anymore, so I supose i can count that one out LOL. I think i worry abit less of what other ppl think, but I'm still the same old paranoid as ever, joy oh joy.

My hair is growing loads since last time i got it cut, ... I didnt even get decent photos of it... only a few, but mister Hard Drive decided to die on me, so yeah

Gotta go to bed, its 4am and I gotta be up at half 9 to straighten my hair and go to my new room SEXY!
I SO much post photos...

I haven't posted anything here since... forver, so there goes a quicky:

* Tomorrow I'm going to move to my new rent room in Ashford, yay
* I bought the boots I wanted for my Tomb Raider outfit, which ended being timberland in the end
* I wanna lose weight
* I'm scared of going work alone, so I want a diferent job
* I wanna get into fashion college this year
* I'm sick of doing nothing
* I haven't studied for  over a year
* I feel depressed in the room where I live now, so I can't wait to move!

Fuck me, I'm a bloody jealous person!!!

I know I will feel better soon

I finally made up my mind about college, and I think i will go to fashion, Which will be better than sitting on a PC all the time on photoshop or whatever the hell they use on Media curse. So yeah... And it will help me make my cosplay outfits <3

Perfect boots for Lara!!

Talking abuot cosplay, I wanna cosplay as Lara Croft, from Tomb Raider. I've been on a quest to find items, but money is so limiting that its impossible to find anything nice and cheap, so for the boots i decided to spend abit more than usual i guess, 45 pounds (i cant even believe im gonna do it) will be the price i will pay for them, but at least they are just perfect.

I've been setting up my Coppermine Galery for my website, which takes forever and im sick of it, I wish my old one didnt die... I had over 2 THOUSAND pictures there, but oh well ^^ maybe it was better this way, at least i got unlimited free space, and I get FTP acess, which I didn't before. Bad always brings good.

Talking about bad, im so sick of living where i live, i cant wait to look around for houses to move out, people are horrible here, always shouting, always looking for trouble and being asses realy, its sick. I hope to get to ashford this month or the next month. Then my babe graduates then hopefuly he gets a job <3 but before that HOLLDAYS!. Going to portugal to see my parents and Brad's coming with me this tme, thank god.

I need someone who knows PHPmotion so they can edit my layout when i have one LOL...

im gonna rant at myself.

I hate the fact i say i cant draw, because then I lose the will to draw which then of course does mean i cant draw ...hmm..
I have a picture to finish since god knows when, comissions and trades and i just wont touch them for some reason x.x .

thats all, i dont rant too much

I got a massive headache x.x

I've been looking for rooms for rent in another city, but no luck =(. I think i cn go to college for free, which would be awesome now, seeing my money situation really, but the problem is i'm not sure what to study: either fashion or art and multimedia...
I still got time to figure out and make up my mind

I dont feel good today.

So for valentine's i went to london with my boyfriend and my good friend Ali, and we had an awesome time there!  Ali spent some money on me, since he lost my bday present xD so i was free to spend 30 quid :D was awesome, althugh I didn't spend it all yet D=!!

I got pink hair extencions, absolute boyfriend manga book the last one cos i wanted it for ages, and some belt i had been flirting with for ages :D, And i still got 13 quid left.
 We played mario kart  in the arcades and i made a fool of myself playing DDR on the dance mat XD god i wish i haven't done such a sad figure of myself LOL oh well :D i will practice one day D=.!

So yea we hanged around all day, got at his, had some pizza, NUM NUMS!, watched some TV, drew abit, had a ncie chat and then at quarter to 8 or so, me and my babe left back home. I was pissing myself with fear, as my area isn't that safe and its full of shitty people, but thank god we made it safely home at around 11pm =s. I was dead tired

Was an awesome day!
And no i wont post the videos of me dancing on DDR xD!

Anyway if any of you guys here have (or know someone who have) My sims for PC who would like to chat online let me know! I don't know anyone who has it, so online is boring alone lol.

Moving on. I made a decision: I need to see a psychologist because my current situation is degrading my life and my boyfriend's too in a way. Although he is sweet about it, it's not fair he keeps doing everything for me ans for us to stay together. I need to change, and that change has to start soon really.


I need to take more photos, they make me feel good <3...




That's the most recent photo of me... but so diferent of the present i guess

I've been sick since saturday, throwing up everyday and it isnt nice!!
it's going away though =D!

I was never so scared on a plane as I was this last time, i swear to god I though I was going to die in that flight... It was just such a depressive day i guess.
My flight was meant to leave at 4pm, so I left home at 1PM (takes me a while to get to the airport) and once i got there, i went normaly
blah blah, until my gate, which was 18, until i realised it was 30 mins late. So yeah I had half an hour to sit and do nothing... fair enough.

So half 4 came, and I went to the bus that would take me to the plane, where I had to sit for another 30 minutes...When it finally went, it went around here our plane shoult be and returned to the same place. This made LOADS of people annooyed (since some had been there since 8am, other flights had been canceled which didn't get my hopes up) and we were told to get off the bus and return to the gate. Many people demanded an explanation, and we were told diferent reasons, one being the bad weather in UK, which apparently it wasn't as bad as they were mentioning, other thing was the lack of slot in the landing lane on Heathrow, UK so, basicaly once we got there, we would have nowhere to land, how awesome.

At 6,i finally got in a dam plane, but didn't take off until 7pm... This made me stressed cos it takes ahout 2 hours and half to UK and last train to my homeplace would be at midnight so yeah....

Ok so we took off, smooth flight and shit, until the edge of France where it shock LIKE hell and i was so scared i just spend the whole trip talking to the old, and nice couple next to me. I was pissed with fear, and so you see how horrible it was, they had to interrupt the meal service until the plane would stable, It was scary. Once it stabeled, meal servce carried on, and as drinks came even MORE torbulence... honbestly it was so much that the man sitting next to me split his wine all over the plane table... scary hyonestly... I couldn't wait to get to UK

Once there, the landing started... well thats what they said, because for 20 minutes we had to go around in circles over London waiting to get a slot to fucking land.... was so frustrating....

Well Im home now and i got the most beautiful christmas presents from my lover, which made up for it....

but yeah life's going well around here <D!!

Tomorrow I will be flying back to UK. I don't know whether to be happy or not

 So here we are in 2009, and I'm a year nearer of the date I wanna get married on  LOL.
Anyway, my resolutions for this year:

- Get a better part time job
- Get into fashion school
- Worry less about what other people think of me
- Move house
- Get pink stripes on my hair
- Buy more clothes, since i haven't got enough really
- Learn more dishes to cook.
- That Brad sort his issues out <3

And that's it for now, was a nice year, but the best "present" was my bf realise how stupid he was being, I couldn't ask for better present for this new year really, means he is a step closer to actually sort himself out =3, and I will be there always by his side <3.

I hope you had a good  new year ppl =)